Leaving the teen years...

Well, I have been the sparkling age of 20 years for quite some time now. Try like two weeks. I feel that this is the appropriate length of time to report on coming of age. I feel that now I am officially a young adult. I mean it is kind of embarassing to tell people who you know are 21 or 22 or even 23 that you are just the quaint age of 19. But now I can proudly say that I have experienced two decades of life. That is quite the accomplishment I like to think.

Well my birthday was fabulous. I spent most of it with my Grandma Smith. I woke up and opened my parents present which is what I wanted most and needed most! Fat quarters for my quilt! I am making a beautiful yellow, white, black, and gray quilt for my comforter at school. It is going to be beautiful! I then went to my grandma's and ran some errands. We met up with my beautiful mother at Chevy's and experienced a delious meal of chips and salsa and my fave entree, Santa Fe salad. I also went to the Olive Garden with my Mother and Father on the previous Saturday to celebrate too. That was a tasty experience! Love that parentals! :* Grandma and I then proceeded to work on my roomie Lorraine's birthday present! I also got to work on my quilt too which I was pumped about.

I came home and ate a great meal of taco salad for my birthday meal, which is my fave also! We had a family party which consisted of chocolate cake and the grandparents and Uncle Bear' s family. So all in all, it was a great day! I got chips and salsa, colbie caillat, money, peanut butter and mini chocolate chips! I also bought myself the Michael Buble cd "Crazy Love" which I highly recommend and love to pieces!

But there is a dowm side to getting old. I have been experience some abdominal pain and burning sensations in my chest. Well the family diagnosis is ulcers and heart burn! Ahh! It is miserable because sometimes it prevents me from eating my faves! So I am learning that you trade life experiences for physical ailments.

But 20 is good. I also was a facebook celebrity on my birthday! Everyone just loves you so much when you celebrate the day of birth. But age 20 so far, gets two thumbs up!

Well, I decided a couple of weeks ago that I am done with my boring old conservative hair cut! It is time to bring in the new and get rid of the drab! So I went to get my hair cut by this fabulous woman named Amanda! She has cut my hair once and I absolutely LOVED it but then I decided she was too expensive and I tried some other places well after a couple of fashion disastas I broke in decided to go back and I do not regrett it at all. One of my disastas is that one girl cut my hair uneven! That was embarassing and miserable to grow out and fix.

But they say that beauty is pain but here is what I have decided. That pain they talk about is your running the card and knowing that the bank account is depleting but might I add that as painful as that is it definitely makes up for the fact that when you get those great comments from everyone and you know that everyone is checking you out because you look that fabulous! lol

BALANCE!!!!!!!

Well right now I am sitting here thinking about my life and where I am going with my life. Right now it feels like it will be full of endless hours of working and studying and not a whole lot of anything else. I am not having much of a social life outside of work which is difficult. I feel like there is a whole lot of somethings and not a lot of other things. I think about the word balance and for some reason I always think of the picture of Lady Justice with her scales.

So my goal in life right now is to find balance. That sounds harder than it really is in the fact that how can I balance everything when I don't really know where to start? I have decided to join an indoor soccer team with the singles which will take place every Friday night. I have also decided to start a work out regiment of walking every morning(needless to say that regiment is slow in the uptaking). I have decided to start to study my scripture more thoroughly and more often. I have decided I need to be a heck of a lot better at writing my missionaries too! There is honestly not a better medicine for confusion and stress in life than to receive a letter from a missionary in the mail.

Sounds overwhelming doesnt it? Well let me tell you about my internet classes! I am retaking two classes that I took during the winter semester but because of illness and stupid choices in relation to boys. I hate every minute of it! I am rereading things that I have already read once and talking about things that I once vowed to never discuss again! I also thought I would escape the droll voice of Brother Anderson only to find that he narrates many of the long, monotone presentations that I frequently have to listen to. So I am saying now that NEVER will I have to retake any classes from this point forward and my parents can quote me on that! Its more pain that it is really worth.

I love the family time that I am getting though. It is great to spend time with the mom and the sister. My dad and I are home together in the mornings which is great because we get QUIET time! I feel a lot closer to my brothers Hunter and Garrett too. I have been helping them cook and bake and it is fun to see how they are growing and trying to become more like adolescent adults. I am grateful for this time with them. I love that we all love being together. I am really loving our nightly family scripture study and discussions about our goods and bads of the day. Nothing better than family time.

So BALANCE! Now i just have to figure out how to juggle it out in my little available hours of the day BUT I vow to accomplish this much needed balance! :)